The time came during our September council meeting when Paul Nauman asked, "Is there anyone interested in writing something for the November newsletter?" Usually, everyone looks down, hoping that Paul won't catch their eye and "nominate" them. For some reason, though, I felt compelled to volunteer. I said I didn't know what I would write about, but I felt a nudge to write something. That was Tuesday night, September 8.
The next day, on 9/9/09, I was told that 25% of my bank was being let go. I was given the option to walk away with a minimal severance package or remain on part-time, albeit at 50% less than I was making before. Staying on part-time meant I would continue to receive full benefits. This seemed important and Christine and I agreed that is what I would do.
It was shortly after things unfolded that I realized why God pushed me to write this article. I could now relate to the economy's effect on so many people going through this current storm. As a human, I was scared; however, I knew one thing. God would provide and He was in control. For such a long time, I felt that I controlled my career and provided for my family. Only during this current struggle have I relinquished that control over to God. Yes, I've been networking hard and have applied to several posi-tions online. But, I know that I have to be patient and await God's timing.
About two weeks after the news of my job, I was having a down day at work. I was worried and scared. Then I received a phone call. It was K-Love radio calling to ask if there was anything they could pray for me about. I asked if someone asked them to call me. No, they said, I was in their system as a prior donor and "it was God's timing" for them to call me. I broke down in tears. It was as if God was calling me and reminding me, "I am in control. Do not worry. Trust in me!"
I'm still in the storm, but I am not so afraid. I remember Jesus rebuking the disciples when they awoke Him during the storm on their boat. Jesus said, "Why are you afraid? Have you still no faith?" (Mark 4:40). I may still have some fear. But I continue to trust in Him. This is what faith is all about.
